11 Week Bumpdate

So, my 10th week of pregnancy proved to be a stressful one.  I was exhausted all week, not sleeping great, and super stressed for my appt.  Will the fear/stress ever go away, or is that just permanently there?  I would imagine everyone feels stressed before these appts but I can't help but think after dealing with infertility for an extended period of time I am constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Not sure how I can change that way of thinking...but I know some of you will understand, which is why I find this blog so therapeutic.  I am still amazed at the thought that so many people can just have sex and get pregnant, another thing I just need to get over...all in due time hopefully.

My appt. on Friday started out with a minor scare.  We couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler so after about a minute of trying my doctor quickly wheeled in the abdominal ultrasound and it picked up our little baby quickly and she commented on how things are looking perfect.  Both Dr. P and now my OB have used that word "perfect."  It should make me feel better, but every once in a while it makes me nervous.  Once that was over she had to do an internal and a pap smear.  She commented just like my RE did, how twisted my cervix is but hoped it would straighten itself out as the baby grew bigger.  Because of that, the exam caused a lot of discomfort and you guessed it, bleeding.  She had warned me I might bleed for 24 hours (bright red) and then it would taper off to brown.  But, she didn't warn me that I was already bleeding and the paper sheet underneath me was covered in it.  Unfortunately, I was alone, P couldn't make it, and to say I stood there shaking when I noticed it, is an understatement.  I have been fortunate not to have any bleeding/spotting throughout this pregnancy, so Friday was my first dose of it.  It was scary and stressful and I can't get it out of my head.  The bleeding has just about stopped now, but I am still freaked out. 

I hope this week is a better one. It's only 4 days, so that's a good start, right?  I still can't find a bump "update" format that I am in love with, so you're stuck with this mess for now!



How far along? 11 Weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Wellll...the morning of my retrieval I weighed in at 123 lbs and I actually had lost a few pounds leading up to IVF because of the high protein, low carb diet.  This morning I weighed 125 which I was happy with.  What I wasn't so happy with was seeing the scale at my doctor's office on Friday say 129!!!  In my defense it was a Friday afternoon at 4:30 after I had devoured a huge bag of cheetos in the car ride over, that has to count for something right??   So, basically, by the end of the day, I am up a solid 5 or 6 pounds from my starting weight.  I don't notice the extra weight anywhere but my stomach.

Maternity clothes? Just about all my work pants/jeans, except one pair of skinny jeans that still fits, hoping I won't need maternity shirts for a while

Stretch marks? No, my brother's wife bought me a few all natural creams to rub on my stomach to prevent them but not really sure when to start doing that haha I think it may be a little early, especially when right now I feel more fat than pregnant!

Sleep: Not so great, have been waking up early and not being able to fall back asleep.  My hips/back bother me a lot too but that isn't anything new.

Best moment this week: Baby shopping with Mom and then P.  We spent a few hours playing with strollers, swings, bouncers...so much fun

Have you told family and friends: Some of them, we are both sharing the news with our coworkers this week

Miss Anything? Getting my hair done!  Growing up I was pure blonde, that is definitely not the case anymore.  I haven't had it foiled since before IVF started in July, hoping once I get past the first semester I can jump back into it.

Movement: Still not even close

Food cravings: Chips, any kind cheetos, sun chips, doritos...gross, I know

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really (have barely had any nausea)

Have you started to show yet: looking chubby for sure

Boy or Girl: Not really sure anymore...but can't wait to find out in December!

Looking forward to: NT Scan next week (but to be honest, every time I think about it, I am overcome with anxiety, is that normal?) 

This will be my last post before going private (ooooh big deal right haha.)  So happy I heard back from just about all of you!! It was a lot more difficult setting all this up then I thought and I still don't know how it is going to work.  If you didn't want to post your email on my blog (which I totally understand) you can email me privately at linds2433@yahoo.com and I will add you as a reader.  Thanks so much to all of you for following along...