14 weeks 1 day

I had been off facebook since March.  I debated going back on for a while now, but just wasn't ready.  I am still not crazy about being back on, but I really wanted to get the chance to make some sort of announcement on it, just like everyone else gets to.  But I didn't want it to be over the top and I also wanted a small reference to our journey without putting it in people's faces.  So I posted this picture with the following quote "If our journey had been easy...then we wouldn't have you."  The amount of responses I got was overwhelming and in the end I was glad I did it.  But, facebook continues to be a struggle for me. 

My NT scan was almost 2 weeks ago and it went really well.  I was 12w3d (measuring 12w4d) at the time and we saw a nasal bone and spinal cord and the skin fold measurement was 1.8 (1.7 is average for being 12 weeks.)  So, I was happy with that.  Baby was twirling around and sticking it's butt up in the air (definitely a baby of mine!)  I had some b/w done on the same day, but won't know those results until I do another round of bloodwork in 2 weeks.  When I called my insurance to see if they would cover the tests, they said only if I got both the u/s and the b/w...which is why we went ahead with both. 

I am definitely not as run down as I was a few weeks ago, but still really tired.  I can't believe I am 14 weeks already.  First trimseter is over.  And now I am starting to freak out.  Now, the pregnancy is really hitting me.  Every once in a while I look down at my stomach and am a little freaked out by the fact that there is a living breathing human in there!!!!  My stomach is continuing to grow, although it is much worse at night.  Things feel/look different down there and I am starting to wonder how on earth my body is going to do this???  There has already been talk of a c-section, but that freaks me out as well.  Too early for me to be thinking about any of this, I know, but I am already nervous!

I have another appt. with my OB on Friday. I am petrified she is going to tell me I have gained too much weight.  It is all in my stomach.  The problem is, I can't stop snacking!!! I have started cutting down on food I bring to work.  Today, I only brought an apple, carrots/celery with dip, and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.  But, when I got home I was so hungry I pigged out on doritos and air heads (Halloween candy.)  So gross, I know!!!!

The room did not get painted this weekend like I had hoped.  My husband was sick all last week and didn't get anything done.  You don't know how badly I just want to paint myself, but I know I shouldn't be up on ladders or around the paint, so I am going to squash the urge.  Baby comes first now! 

I know I haven't been blogging lately, just had a lot of stuff on my mind.  I will write about it soon, but just can't put it into words in a way that make sense right now. 

So, here is a picture of me looking less and less blonde but more and more tired!