Graduation Day

Yesterday was a lot harder than I thought it would be.  I squeezed in both my last appt. with Dr P and my Nurse's appt. at my OBGYN's office thinking it would be perfect to take the day and get both done...looking back, it might not have been the best idea!

We walked into our ultrasound with Dr. P and as soon as she put the probe in she started smiling because she saw our little one dancing away.  She turned the screen toward us and we saw it too!!!  He/she was a little over 2 cm long and had that strong heartbeat again of 179 and was wiggling around.  P and I were overjoyed.  She also said my ovaries were finally shrinking back to size.  I did have one question before leaving Dr P and it involved baby #2...too early maybe haha?  Anyways she told me that as soon as P and I wanted to start again, all I had to do was call and we would go right back to where we left off.  Try a frozen embryo transfer with our one remaining from IVF #1 and if that didn't work we would proceed with IVF#2.  She said she would like to see my body recover for a year after the first baby and then after that we could jump right back in. 

It was so sad to say good-bye to her and that office.  I had to have gone there 15-20 times just July/August alone.  They were so compassionate and professional and everything else you want someone to be who you are trusting your body to. 

So, we drove home, I had a quick lunch and then headed out alone to my appt. with the nurses.  As I was sitting in the waiting room, I couldn't help but feel out of place...is that normal??  I didn't want to be there.  The office is gross compared to my RE's office and I can't tell you how many people walked in pregnant and their date of birth ended in 89, 90, 91.  Ahh, so much younger than me, and I am not even that old at 29!! 

Then I got called back for an hour long chat with the nurse.  I tried to put on a happy face but it was difficult.  The first question was..."Was this a planned pregnancy?"  Yup, I did IVF.  She also asked if I had started my prenatal vitamins and again, yup, started them in September of 2010.  And it went on and on... Limited amounts of caffeine, no alcohol, are you kidding, this has been my routine for months now!!!  Then I had to pee in a cup.  I asked if the Crinone leftover would be any type of problem and she looked at me like I had five heads having no idea what Crinone was or even understanding the words progesterone gel.  I am sure the meeting wasn't as bad as I was making it out to seem, but she had no idea about infertility or IVF or anything else that had been going on with me and that really irritated me.  It ended with them taking four vials of blood and then I proceeded to go home and cry!! I think it was just a long day and I was really sad to be saying good-bye to such a wonderful office to transition to one where I was treated just like everyone else.  But, I guess now that I am pregnant, I am just like every other pregnant woman?  Doesn't feel right, but I will get over it.   

Onto the exciting news.  Our first appt. with our OB is next Friday and I will be 10 1/2 weeks.  There won't be an ultrasound but I am sure she will do a pelvic exam and go over lots more information.  The last time I saw her was over a year ago, when she handed me a Clomid script and referred us to a urologist and reproductive endocrinologist...can't believe it was that long ago!  After that we will schedule our NT scan which has to happen between 12 and 13 weeks (mid-October.)  We also found out that our anatomy scan will be in the first two weeks of December and we are beyond excited for that!  Seeing our baby yesterday was absolutely amazing, feeling my baby bump is even crazier.  Every once in a while P and I look at each other and say how we still can't believe it.  We still have a long way to go, but we are so thankful for being pregnant right now.  And here is a picture of our growing jelly bean...