It's A Good Start

I cannot apologize enough to my blog friends for leaving you hanging for so long.  It has KILLED me to keep this from some of you.  But, we were in Maine these past two days and I wanted to wait before my second beta came in.

Wednesday morning (12dp3dt) I went in for Beta #1: 202

(Today) Friday morning (14dp3dt) I went in for Beta #2: 360 (and I was in a complete panic when I realized it didn't double, almost started crying to the nurse on the phone and she did everyhing she could to reassure me.)

The fact that it didn't double makes me really nervous.  It makes my mind go immediately to worst case scenario.  I have spent the last few days furiously researching betas.  It seems the "new" way of thinking is that it should go up at least 60% every 48 hours and mine went up 80%.  I am wondering if maybe both implanted originally and then one didn't make it?  We have to go back next Friday morning for another beta.  Another whole week of waiting.  What fun!

When I called my brother today he first told me how excited he was, and then said the words, "It's a Good Start."  And for whatever reason those were the exact words I needed to hear. 

Believe it or not, I have known for a week I was going to get a positive.  I started testing last Friday (7dp3dt) and got a pretty good line and by Monday (10dp3dt) it was almost as dark as the control line and I saw my first "Pregnant" on a digital.  I also could tell because I felt great for a few days and then last weekend, the awful stretching/bloating of my stomach started.  I called about it and they said it could continue the entire first trimester.  Because I had so many follicles and such high estrogen, the follicles are filling back up with fluid/blood which is causing my ovaries to swell.  It is SO much worse at night, to the point that I cannot walk upright!!!

But, for now, we are pregnant!  We are nervous.  We are hopeful.  But, for the first time in almost 2 years, I can say, we're pregnant!

(If you have somehow stumbled upon this blog and know us in real life, PLEASE, do not share the news with anyone.  We have had such little control over this whole process, that we would like to have the opportunity to decide when/how to tell people...and we still have such a long way to go!!)