I am usually prepared for what kids have to say but this particular day I was caught off guard. I am not one that takes lots if days off from school. But, this year has been a different story. With all of my tests, and appts. with specialists I have missed more days this year then in the my last 5 years combined, and the students have noticed! So I guess I shouldn't have been too surprised when one of my little girls asked why I had been missing so many days of school. When I pretended I didn't hear her she then asked if I was pregnant to which I responded no but I would love to be! That night I got an email from her mom. Obviously I had been dinner time conversation and I am okay with that. One thing I have realized over this past year is how much people care and it is so comforting.
I know I already gave a brief history of our TTC journey but I left out something pretty important. I will be the first woman to give birth on my mom's side since my mom gave birth to my younger brother 26 years ago. If it only stopped there...I do have two female cousins (no sisters) but neither have given birth yet. A month before my mom gave birth to my younger brother my aunt gave birth to my handsome little cousin. However, within days of giving birth my family was dealt a tremendous tragedy...my aunt passed away because of a brain aneurysm. To say I haven't thought about her would be a lie. I thought about her when we began TTC, I thought about her when I realized it wouldnt be easy for us, I thought about her when I went in for an MRI of my brain and I continue to think about her as we get ready for our second appt with our RE to plan our next steps. Life isnt fair and it often times doesn't make sense. My mom always tells me how much my aunt loved me, if only I could remember...I like to think she is with me now watching over P and me as we begin this journey.
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