Not sure why I am having so much trouble staying asleep lately. I don't feel stressed (although maybe my body does.) I fall asleep fine, but for the past 4 nights I have been up about an hour later, thinking it's time to get up and get ready for work. When I fall back asleep it is only a few hours before I wake up again totally disoriented, and then again, and again. It could be the meds, a few days ago I woke up and almost passed out in the shower from being so shaky. It does say if taking the bromocriptine at night to slowly wake up in the morning or you could have nausea/dizziness, but after I have pushed snooze 3 times, I don't have time to get up slowly! Whatever I am doing, it isn't working, because someone commented on my dark circles on Monday. Personally, I think I have a right to dark circles right now!
I talked to Village Pharmacy today and my meds. for my first IUI will be at my front door tomorrow. I think that is when it will finally hit P. Can't believe it is time for this. I have kept a notebook for the past 16 months of everything that has been going on. I found a list of baby names that P and I had brainstormed after we had been trying for a few months dated April 2011. How the heck did we get here? If someone had told me this is where we would be, I would have thought they were crazy! I am not a very patient person yet somehow all this time has passed and I'm not even pregnant yet, I guess life goes on...
I am going in Friday for an injectibles class (exciting, I guess?) I watched the video but still do not trust myself 100%. What if I do it wrong?? How is someone as unqualified as me supposed to stab myself with a needle!? I have gone back and forth about P doing it, but I am the kind of person that always likes to do things myself, and I don't want this to turn into me getting mad at him for thinking he did it wrong (which if you knew me, that is most lkely what would happen.) So, for the sake of our relationship I will be giving myself the shots (I think/hope.)
So glad I have this blog, because no one else understands! Oh, the crazy life of an infertile...
Good luck on the IUI! I haven't done one myself (I don't think I'm a candidate?), but I have had to give myself an injection. Actually I had my husband give it to me because I wussed out. But my injection (Ovadrill) was a piece of cake! Didn't hurt in the slightest.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like we've been on similar timelines - I got married in October 2009 and started TTC about 4 months after you, but I'm also 29! Visit me at www.mybumovaries.blogspot.com.
Happy ICLW week!
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DeleteYou will get used to it! Prior to miscarrying, I had to give myself daily injections of progesterone in the bum. Before that business started, I thought needles were the end of the world. Now? Meh.
ReplyDeleteThat seems to be what everyone thinks..it is amazing what we will put ourselves through!
DeleteI'm glad you've decided to do these yourself- it really is easier that way. And I pinky-swear-promise-you that after the first few days, you'll be a pro and it won't seem like a big deal. This is coming from a needle-phob no less. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteWell that's the plan, I may end up running around the house while P chases me with the needle, but let's pray that's not the case haha!
DeleteYou can do it! The other ladies are right, once you get it down you'll be a pro! We were very proud of ourselves after the first shot (J does all mine to stay involved). I understand wondering how you got here...I think that everyday :) You're not alone!
ReplyDeleteThanks Laura...guess I really didn't think about P wanting to be involved, maybe we will take turns (maybe haha)
DeleteBest of luck with your class and even MORE LUCK for your first IUI :) ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteThanks, thinking of you this cycle too!!
DeleteYay! You'll do great! The first one's hard, but after that it gets easier and easier.
ReplyDeleteThanks, I sure hope so :)
DeleteI hope your class is helpful! You'll definitely be able to do the injections. It might be weird at first, but you'll get used to it fast.
ReplyDeleteI foolishly told my husband that he could do an injection and immediately regretted it. (He has a poor history with my *fake* epi-pen.) But you know what? It was fine. We ended up splitting them. I think he wanted to be involved somehow, and eventually I learned to trust him.
Hahaha...so glad to see we are not alone in this struggle! I guess he is my husband, I should be able to trust him :)
DeleteI'm in the same boat as you with the sleeping. Haven't been able to do it. But I've always had sleep issues. Finally, yesterday, the doctor decided to refer me to a sleep specialist. I had someone comment on my circles just last week lol.
ReplyDeleteWe gave up on the name list after a few months of trying. We basically just don't talk about it anymore, it's too hard. There have been times when I thought the cycle was successful when I would look over a list of names, but mostly I avoid it.
Good luck with the class!
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GL with the shots!! The anticipation is WAY worse than the shot...promise. I did all of mine until we moved on to the big boys (trigger and PIO). I'm definitely a control freak and was a perfectionist about every draw and injection. I wanted to trust my hubby but only let him once...and started bawling. You can do it! I was terrified and now I can honestly say it wasn't all that bad :)
ReplyDeleteBefore TCC I was a brilliant sleeper, I could sleep anywhere for any amount of time at the drop of a hat. Now, not so much. I miss sleeping well.
ReplyDeleteIt took us having to see a specialist before Matt got it and it really hit home a bit more when I had to have my HSG. Goodluck with the shots I gave mine to myself because I HATE HATE HATE needles and was too big of chicken to let Matt do it.
ReplyDeleteI'm starting my first IVF cycle this month. We used Village pharmacy too. They have been so nice and I love how they deliver to your door. Just out of curiosity, where are you taking the injection class? I had a very quick lesson with my nurse, but I don't trust myself. And being the control freak that I am, want to do it myself and not have my hubby attempt!
ReplyDeleteHi Annie...thanks for finding my blog! I called my REs office and told them I was unsure and they told me I could come in for a 20 minute lesson, probably like what you had with your nurse. There is also a great video on the village pharmacy website, hope this helps..good luck in your first IVF, I will be pulling for you!!
DeleteHonestly the injectables are much easier than they seem. If you are stimulating for your IUI, then they will be really small needles. I did my stims myself for the same reason and found it pretty simple. I would try stretching the skin instead of pinching however. I found that it left less bruises and had an easier time going in.
ReplyDeleteIf you have to do any intermuscular shots, have your hubby do them. It's too hard to get the right angle.
Good luck!
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